I know it's been a long time that I have blogged. Truth is I really don't have any excuses expect that I have been working on myself. Although in my personal opinion I have a long road ahead of me. I had been dealing with a lot of loss in my life in recent years. From some friends lost touch to sadly deaths. In this month alone I have loss my beautiful cat Comet she was 20 years old. She was a hero. She saved my father's live a few times when he suffer problems with his heart. She always knew when to sit with anyone who was suffering from sadness, loneliness, or just needed a nudge of encouragement. I can say that she lived a full and happy life. who touch many people lives. Everyone loved her. My parents would even tell us to get off certain chairs for her to sit on lol. If you are a pet owner, parent or lover you understand what I mean.
Then one of my best friends loss his grandmother. She was in her ninety and she was "Firecracker" until the her last breath. To me she was more that my adopted Grandma but a role model. She inspired me never give up on my dreams no matter what age I'm at. She had her own style that was both classy and sassy. She never held back on speaking her mind. Didn't matter if she was giving you a good kick in the butt when you needed it or loving advice. She always shown respect and love no matter who they were. She lived through a lot history that I felt I learn more facts from her than any text book could have taught me. She was able to live long enough to meet her great-great grandchildren. I know that her beautiful family will deeply miss her a lot.
Last but not less sadly my family loss one of my favorite aunts. She was the baby sister on my mother side. My mom's best friend. Carmen was another Firecracker in my life. She had 4 beautiful children and 7 grandchildren. Honestly my aunt Carmen was like my second mother. When I hated living in Florida as a teenager I was about to live with her and her family for a few months. When my family were having a hard time in between moves she had some of us live with her in a small apartment until the house was ready for us to move in here in NYC. Even though I will not go into details, my aunt Carmen also had a hard life when it came to a certain cousin who put her whole family threw a lot hell. However she never bent the knee of gave up with all the downs that came at her and her family. No matter how back people tried to kick her down. She's one of the people who taught me strengths
The people that my heartache for the most is my mom, her husband, children and grandchildren. (as well as my sister and brother) Because she was taken too soon from a health condition that couldn't be cure. I do feel at peace know that she's not in pain anymore. I know she's a perfect peace. I will miss her. I am lucky to had her as one of my amazing aunts in my life.
Anyway, I felt I needed to get some of this out of the way. I want to start blogging and even do videos again. It's not like I have a lot to say about certain things. But I have so many ideas that I want to share. You know me I love to talk about party planing, music and friendships. :)
But as far as dating..... Honestly, that hasn't been a focus on my life in a long time. Basically, I have so many ideas and plans of where I want my life to go and dating isn't on top of my list. If I'm not happy in a relationship with myself I won't be happy with anyone else. BTW; is one of my favorite quotes. And right now I have BIG Plans and Goals that are so much more important to me. That I can't wait to check them off my bucket list!
SO remember "Focus on what makes you happy. Focus on postive goals in your life and everything else line up at the right time for YOU!"
Have a great day my peeps! Sending all much love :)
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